Then, the boy looks on helplessly as the love of his life was taken away.
Now, the man saw an ending no more fitting, though in a dream.
It puts a conclusion to all the missing answers perhaps he would never wanted to know.
August 1, 2009
In less than a year im gonna be a NEET. (not employed, in education or training.)
In army lingo, they call it ORD.
Many people around me have already more or less decide their career/study paths, while im still very much clueless about mine.
Mum has been wanting me to go to university to further my studies, puts a lot of expectations on me since apparently my brother cant quite commit to studying.
Actually, i do want to further my studies. Be it architecture, interior or specialised fields such as exhibition design, retail.. etc.
For me, a huge turning point in my life came when my mum dropped a massive bombshell on me.
Half a year ago, she told me my dad could at most live up to 5-6 years from now.
With that, i told myself to commit to working once im out of army and earn a steady income to support myself and also to chip into the family.
One may think its a forced decision that is a result of an impact that will change my life.
In life, not everything will go your way, there are pitfalls here and there. It is however, up to you to choose whether you get out of that endless loop of self pity and start grinding out new paths or to remain content in what you are having now.
Of course, i will regret that i will not be able to study overseas, meet new people, attend varsity life..
But, in my new path that i have chosen, and not given to me, i will set new objectives.
I can still continue to meet new people, learn new things, have good ambitions and dreams.
Nothing has changed, it is just the approach and direction that has been altered.
In the end, the end result will all be the same.
July 24, 2009
You are what you are.
No matter what people say
No matter what they think
you are who you are.
July 17, 2009
Just got back from a sudden and random night ride with syafiq, yuze, his friend and merv.
Pretty fun reminiscing about the past, and discovering some shocking truths.
Learnt something new about the old me.
In my thoughts, ” did i ever do that? “
I can be said to have a very short and selective memory.
I cannot remember most of the things that happen while others can.
It is good in a sense that, i get to start anew and change as time goes by.
It is bad as i forget how i used to be, how i do things then, and how things have changed.
things like helping out the elderly, writing email to solve conflicts, getting respected may never be remembered by me again.
but im glad it still lives on in a part of everyone’s lives.
im grateful for the fact that i am still remembered for how i was, and keep me sane for what i am going to do in the future.
with this post, i wish that i will still be the person i was in the past, and move to a brighter future with the new me.
July 12, 2009
July 9, 2009
heres an anime ending that is top notch quality in terms of creative juice and animation quality
the opening is great too.
quality of animation is amazing in ep1.. haven watched ep2 though. looks promising however.
did some area cleaning today. not enough.. will continue tml.
will do a proper post this weekend.
July 5, 2009
the title says dont say lazy which is coincidentally k-on’s ed song title.
but im really lazy lol. ok i will be out by wednesday next week, and will update my site then..
got new loot yesterday and today btw.
June 12, 2009
As the title suggests, there will be some new changes coming in the next few months for this site.
It is not that im unhappy about how this weblog is progressing,
but i want to maximise the usage of it.
Instead of just posting and talking to myself,
im gonna use this blog to publish my works too.
By works i would mean drawing, sketches, 3d… etc.
I have big plans inside my mind, but everything is just fuzzy right now.
Let me get the details right, then i will announce on this site.
Some of the plans i have for this site are,
a tool to help me network with other designers, other otakus, other people who share the same interests as me.
an online portfolio where i can show it to the industry people in the future.
a place where interaction can take place, where activities are organised.
i would be closely working with my facebook and flikr to bring about changes.
of course right now, the number of people reading are few and countable, but if i can, i would make it a more reachable blog to read.
some of the next articles i will be posting would be either ;
- 1 week in Agra
- 1 day in Singapore
- the rebirth project
- plans for my modulus phase 2 project
Some of you guys must be wondering, why now?
I believe now is the best time to kickstart my career in the future.
I believe the period after National Service would be spent rediscovering my skills, learning new stuff, and getting a job.
I have also planned something big in my mind, but am afraid i cant carry it out.
Shall announce when i feel im ready for it.
a photo preview of the rebirth project.
June 11, 2009
June 7, 2009
Presenting an update on my loot this month… mostly pre ordered stuff from the web….
Warning, not photo intensive post.
